Day 15 of the @64millionartists #januarychallenge .
Ok so. I had a challenge today to draw a self portrait. One using the predominant hand, other.. with my left hand. I instantly panicked. ‘I’m not good enough. I am shit at faces. It’s gonna look stupid’ Etc so I didn’t want to do it. Anyway I did. But as I was drawing worrying that it would look like some sort of demented creature, it started to look human and not rubbish. Then I started thinking, this doesn’t look like me,
It’s going to be shit and I should be able to draw what I see. But I. Can’t.so started to feel really insecure and inferior and like a true imposter. I started to think that this face looks better than me and that I didn’t look like that I was way worse and people would think I see myself as better than I am. Yeah so I scribbled it all out without even thinking. Then realised what my thought processes were that led to that. And I decided to salvage it and carry on. Anyway. Turns out I can draw pretty good with my left hand but that I still am shit at drawing what I see in front of me. This was a hard process and yes I am a massive over thinker but glad to have still managed it .